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(no subject) [Apr. 19th, 2004|10:51 pm]
mtd_13
'I want everyone who reads this to ask me 3 questions, no more no less. Ask me anything you want. Then I want you to go to your journal, copy and paste this allowing your friends (including myself) to ask you anything'
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(no subject) [Apr. 12th, 2004|11:24 pm]
mtd_13
[mood |confusedconfused]

i am angry with someone that i technically don't have the right to be angry with.. now that really sucks!!!... if i look at it from the outside i can see that i'm making a big deal out of nothing!! but the anger and upset i am feeling is real. i can feel it in my body. what do you do in those situations? i have to take responsibility for my reactions and how i feel. they did not do anything wrong. but i now feel like i don't want to ever speak to them again. maybe i just need space. i have manifested this situation before.. what did i not learn last time for me to re-create the situation again? the whole situation just sucks!..

God give me the guidance and wisdom to learn what i need to learn to let go of this... ThankU =)
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closure... [Apr. 12th, 2004|11:12 pm]
mtd_13
[mood |satisfiedat peace]

ian called. very unexpected after all this time!!... nice to hear his voice. yes i got the butterflies. it's nice to know there are moments where he still thinks of me. nice to know the friendship is still there. but no i do not feel for him in that way. i've really had closure on this one. i do not have any false hope surrounding the situation. and to think i would have left everything and moved interstate in a heart beat just to be with him. i will always have a soft spot for him though. when i hear his voice i drop everything and give him my undivided attention. i really hope he finds someone special who will be with him forever.
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nature revealing its beauty... [Apr. 12th, 2004|11:00 pm]
mtd_13
[mood |happyopen hearted]

watching dolphins swim against the sunset.. the most graceful thing i have ever seen... =))
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Part 1 of the weekend [Apr. 9th, 2004|02:39 pm]
mtd_13
[mood |sicksick]

head is pounding. hang over like you would not believe!!

so many old faces.. too many drinks.. not enough food to throw up properly..
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ask and you shall receive... [Apr. 7th, 2004|10:54 pm]
mtd_13
[mood |thankfulthankful]

two fantastic job offers within one hour.. i must be doing something right!!

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i was thinking last week that i would need to study OMEGA if i wanted to pursue a sound career in lending. my temp job today offered me a permanent position providing all the training i could possibly imagine... including the Advanced OMEGA course. a path that will guarantee myself a job in commercial lending for the rest of my life. a door that will also guarantee me a job just about any where in the world. there is always a shortage of commercial credit analysts'… and companies will always need finance in order to grow…

also last week i was speaking to a friend about how i would be interested in becoming a financial planner but would only be willing to do it in short "day courses" rather than over long semesters. but i didn't have the finances to do so. today my part time job offered me just that. and MUCH MUCH more. they shared with me the vision of the company and how they would want me to be a part of it. giving me the flexibility to pursue a career within that company in any direction.. be it marketing, sales, financial planning, insurance, consumer lending etc-


two paths.. one that guarantees stability, one that demands creativity...

which will i choose? ..... the path with a heart...
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(no subject) [Apr. 7th, 2004|10:49 pm]
mtd_13
i have edited some of my old entries and have changed them to private viewing only. some thoughts are too close to home but too precious for me to delete.
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smiling to oneself... [Apr. 6th, 2004|07:22 pm]
mtd_13
i opened up my inbox and saw a msg from Ian... my eyes lit up!!.. got so excited even though i knew full well Ian does not have this particular email address.. obviously it wasn't him.. what shocked me is how excited i got and the butterflies that were going crazy in my stomach... it gave me a buzz!! nice to know the thought of him triggers happy memories… but unexpected he still has that effect on me.
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i've lost my dawson!!! [Apr. 4th, 2004|07:36 pm]
mtd_13
[mood |excitedexcited]

omygosh!!.. i've lost my dawson!!.. well i will in about 6 weeks time.. after months and months of nagging him to follow his dream.... he has finally been accepted!!!.. he flies out on the 19th of May to start his new adventure as a cabin crew member.. he will be living in Jubai... he is soooooooooooooo excited and happy!!! i'm so proud of him =)))))))))))))) we were both screaming and shouting when i heard the good news.. hehe.. he's going to love it soooooooooo much!!.. i'm soooooooooooo jealous!!! and OMYGOSH!!!!... i'm going to miss him soooooooooooooooooo much as well!!!!... who's gonna .. you know... do all the "gonna's" with me..??!! don't really know what to say.. except.. TIME TO CELEBRATE AND PARTY!!!!! =))))))))))))))))))))))
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when silence is comfortable [Mar. 31st, 2004|10:32 pm]
mtd_13
[mood |tiredtired]

realised tonight i already have a Dawson...

he called to say thanks.. i didn't feel like talking.. he played his guitar over the phone for 40 minutes... i listened silently.. resting into the tunes…

God always visits me in most simple ways
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